Friday, August 5, 2016
This way to the trail!
This might sound stupid, but I'm truly looking forward to running for 3 hours in the woods.
Relay Team 'Burning Legs*' takes on the Burning River 100 tomorrow! More later...
*Burning Legs Relay Team is:
Jennifer Murphy
Angie Ridgel
Christa Petryszyn
Emily Collins
Pam Semanik
Kelly Baker
Eric Gibb
Dave Semanik
Thursday, July 21, 2016
Going back to start
It's my firmly-held belief that life is all about finding happiness.
This is all just one grand experiment to try and to test, to uncover and explore, to seek out those things that connect us with the joy machine that makes life a worthwhile endeavor.
But when a channel that has always brought that spark suddenly doesn't, it time to change the channel.
That's what happened to me and my bike. I could say it was a recent realization, but that's not entirely true. Only very recently have I been able to admit to myself that my bike life was no longer doing it for me. It probably started sometime last year, or maybe even before that (I can blame long, cold Ohio winters, too). At some point, the bike began to feel less like play, more like work.
To be fair, it's not 'being on the bike' that felt like work. The bike, as Mandy Marquardt so aptly described, is my Happy Place. The part that was bothering me was the stuff surrounding and leading up to that moment of pedaling off into bike bliss; namely, the expectations and commitments I built around cycling, or at least the perception of their ownership of my life.
Even as I approached the finish line at Worlds last month, my motivation was at an all-time low. I absolutely knew that it was time to take a break. Not from the bike, necessarily, but from bike racing. I had devoted a huge part of my life to this. I had pushed myself to levels I never thought possible. Early on, I did it because I wanted to prove to myself that I could. I wanted to be epic, to HTFU. I think lots of competitive athletes think the same way. We do it for the victory over our own limitations, and so we're constantly pushing those limitations. We work hard, set goals, suffer to achieve them, and then set new goals.
But the new goals were starting to feel like recycled old goals. The same races, the same field of competitors, the same courses, lots of the same bullshit. It kind of felt like I had been doing this too long, and that something needed to change.
It was hard to admit - to myself and anyone else - that I was ready to walk away for a while. I had defined myself by this sport. But I was beginning to acknowledge that my expectations had changed.
I appreciate the encouragement of well-meaning friends: "You'll be back in a couple of months", or "you'll be ready for CX". But those are their expectations. Mine aren't so time-dependent. I'll be back when I can return with a totally new perspective. Or at least a renewed sense of joy for it.
You might wonder what I plan to do now. For the record, I don't plan to sit around on the couch watching Game of Thrones all day (tempting, but no). I don't plan on resorting to Pokemon Go to get myself out of the house. Ironically, I've been getting out more but doing things that bring new challenges and excitement. Trail running, for one. Mentoring the gals on Team Stelleri. Riding in fast little circles, and bringing in new riders, at the Cleveland Velodrome. Running sprint intervals in the mornings, before work (something I used to do quite a bit, and found out lately how much I missed it). I even went mountain biking the other day, on the Bedford Singletrack, and, guess what? I didn't die, nor did I fall off any bridges. (It was a bit outside of my comfort zone. I'll be back.)
And, of course, now I'll have more time for my favorite thing in the whole world: long, solo rides to unfamiliar destinations, with no other goal but to get out and get lost for a while.
I can't imagine I'll ever really lose my desire to ride a bike. (There are too many bikes littered around the house for that, and they all need my attention). Sooner or later, I'll probably be lined up again at the start of some race, raring to go.
Or not.
In the meantime, I'll find happiness in trying to figure this all out.
Thursday, June 16, 2016
The World Report: ITU Duathlon Championships 2016, Aviles, Spain
I am the only person who can starve to death in Spain. Jamon Iberico, tortilla, queso, vino – all
great stuff, but never when you need it.
Angie and Jason, and Dave and I, have no intention of
bucking our host country’s culture. We are willing to adapt; we want the full
Spanish experience. But it seems that the Spanish don’t require nearly as much
sustenance as I do. Coffee for breakfast, maybe a piece of bread -- then
nothing until many hours later. Seems you’re only permitted to eat between 1 PM
and 4 PM, and then again after 9 PM. Then there’s that siesta thing: everything – including every restaurant, cafĂ©,
and grocery store -- shuts down exactly when your body craves a morsel of
something to gnaw on.
I am pretty much hungry all the time.
And nervous. We have arrived in Aviles, and I am no longer able to hide from the
inevitable. I had been in a state of semi-denial the weeks and months leading
up to Worlds. It’s a stress-management mechanism, and a way to stay focused on
what I need to do without worrying – unnecessarily – about outcome.
But now, we’re here and it’s real. Angie and I have 3½ days
before we are to compete in the most important race of our lives.
The gravity of the event hits me during the Parade of Nations. We are marching through the narrow streets of Aviles. All the athletes – 1400 total, representing 40 countries - are in team colors and lined up behind their nation’s flag. Every resident of Aviles seems to be here, too; there isn’t one unoccupied space along the curb.
Kristin Allyne, who is competing in her 9th world championship event with Team USA, carries the American flag and leads us along the route. When Team USA passes by, the Spanish people cheer loudly. I feel like a celebrity, returning smiles to strangers who are welcoming us as friends. It is all incredibly humbling, and I fight back tears. This crazy adventure will be enough of a blur without tears.
The entire time we are in Aviles, Angie and I wear the Team
USA uniform. We are representing our country, and have never been so proud to
display our red, white, and blue. For
all the bad press the US receives from foreign nations (some of it deserved,
some of it not), it just feels right to step out every day in our team kit. (Side note: I didn’t really have a choice. My
luggage arrived in Madrid a day later than I did, so I had to do with what I
carried on. Happily, it was everything I needed leading up to and including the
race itself).
The early part of the week is a whirlwind, starting with
figuring out how to park a modern car in a medieval village. (We would become
experts at navigating Romanesque-era roads by the end of this trip). The first thing we do after checking in to the
Palacio Hotel is to find the bikes we rented through Raceday Transport, a
partner with Team USA in shipping and fitting kickass tri bikes for events like
this.
We are told that the bikes haven’t arrived yet. Somebody
must have packed something in their bike box that they shouldn’t have, and
Spanish customs held up the entire shipment (which almost jeopardized the
entire team – but all’s well that ends well).
When they arrive the following day (insert big sigh of relief here),
Angie and I are fitted on our trusty temporary steeds: she’s on a QR, I get a
Guru. It’s not solid black, but other than that it’s perfect.
The days prior to the race are packed. We have a tight agenda:
Bike fit, course preview, team meeting, transition walk-through, parade and
team photo, opening ceremony, all in the same afternoon. When do we get to
eat??
We attempt to ‘grab lunch’ (a term that you will never hear
in Spanish) before our crazy afternoon agenda, but it’s hard to mesh our
schedule with the local culture. At 1 PM, we’re waiting for something –
anything – to open up that serves food. We wait for service, we wait for
water*, we order food and wait some more. Angie and I leave before the food
arrives, leaving the guys alone to try to explain this nonsense to the perplexed
waiter. I spend the afternoon hungry.
* For some reason, it’s really hard to get water in a
Spanish restaurant. It’s not a language barrier thing, either. Jason was an
excellent translator and our trip was enhanced because of his ability to connect
with local people through a shared language. The water situation must be a
cultural barrier, one of the quirks about foreign travel that make it both
interesting and frustrating.
I’m hoping this excess hunger is going to help me with my
skinsuit. The skinsuit, as its name implies, is meant to fit like a second
skin. It’s really a star-spangled sausage casing. It’s so small that
Angie stuffed hers into the front pocket of her jeans before boarding the
flight to Madrid. And it’s snug,
lengthwise. The straps dig into my shoulders, the open-back design is pulled
wayyyyy down. I’m a bit concerned about this.
If it rains during the race, I’m bound to freeze. And what if my ass
crack shows when I’m on the bike? OMG – here comes that American plumber girl
again. Ugh.
My nerves are calmed a bit when Angie and I ride the course
for a second time. There are circles all over this course: roundabouts and
U-turns and multiple laps of the same. I want to ride it enough times to be
able to not have to think about it during the race, but I will be relying on
barriers to keep me on course.
The evening before the race, the anxiety builds. We are
ready to get this party started.
The next morning, we are READY! Our bikes are already in
transition, we just need to haul our gear to the event start, do a bit of a
warm up, and wait for the gun.
Women 40+ Standard distance is the last wave. Waiting at the
start line with gals from all over the world, bonding with our US teammates.
The conversation turns political, much to my delight, and I attempt to convince
the British girls that all Americans aren’t ignorant. Laughter calms my nerves.
For the first time in days, the sun makes an appearance.
Mediterranean sun. It’s not ‘hot’, but it will be and I make a mental note to
STAY HYDRATED. I wish I had more food. Too late now.
The race site is a huge, post-modern dome, across the river
from the city center. Every day, we descend to the river via a twisting maze of
stone streets, walk up a cantilevered ramp, cross the multicolored bridge. By
the time the race is over, we will have walked this route many, many times. It
feels familiar. The race course is designed to encourage spectators, and from
the ramp and both sides of the river, fans watch and cheer. Racers must pass this
area many times: twice on the first run, 2 ½ times on the bike, twice more on
the 2nd run.
I take my position. The gun goes off.
The first run is fun and exciting. Cheering crowds, cries of
‘Vamos!’ and ‘Team USA!’ keep me on pace for the 10K. There are 2 aid stations
along the running course. Although Angie has been trying to teach me how to
drink while running without drowning myself, she has not been successful. I
take a bottle hand-up at every opportunity, sometimes choking on it but mostly
pouring it over my head, hoping that somehow the hydration reaches my
rapidly-depleting cells.
First run completed, onto transition. To those unfamiliar with multisport events,
the transition area is where you ditch your running shoes and get your bike
(T1), and then switch back again once you’re done with the bike leg and ready
for the last run (T2). The object is to do it as quickly and efficiently as
possible. Because of the huge competitor field, the transition area was extra
long, added ½ mile of running – ¼ mile each transition – to our race.
Once on the bike, I’m in my zone. I’m also confident that I
know where I’m going, thanks to the multiple course previews that Angie and I
did earlier. Still, the course is 2 ½ laps of circles, twists, and turns. Arrows
point out the routes for standard and sprint and lap count, but you have to pay
attention. Course re-con gave us an idea of where we could put the hammer down
without missing a turn or crashing into a barrier. Never underestimate the
power of course re-con!
Speaking of speed, this race was all about pacing. This was
the first time either of us competed in standard distance (10K run/25 mile
bike/5 K run). Strategy is required. Ours was simple: Do the long run at a moderate
pace, keep a moderate to high intensity on the bike but save something for the
2nd run, then open it up for the final 5K! Of course, this works
only if you have something left in the tank at that point.
Coming into the last half- lap of the bike course, my calves
start to cramp. It’s dehydration, I’m sure. I acknowledge it and then try to
block it out of my mind, strategize how to manage during the last run.
I’m off the bike and the world seems to be turning in slow
motion. With forced deliberation, I get my shoes on and force my leaden legs to
move. It’s only 3 miles, I tell myself – this race will be over in less than
half an hour as long as I keep moving.
Self talk when I’m suffering: Visualize the finish.
Visualize grabbing that little American flag and waving it as I cross the line,
smiling. Do it for your country. Do it for Team USA.
My heart feels like it’s going to explode out of my chest.
Good thing the skinsuit is tight. I slow my pace, but keep moving. I stop
running, but keep moving. Gasp out a ‘gracias’ to the guy who hands me a bottle
of water. Take a sip, pour the rest over my head. Water pours down into my
shoes, and I feel blisters emerging. My legs are protesting, and my brain is
fighting them. KEEP GOING.
The cheering crowds have thinned. I am happy for that. There
is nothing they could do or say to make me feel stronger, and I hate to look
like I’m suffering in front of people.
As I near the multicolored bridge, there is more spectator
fervor. Dave and Jason have been following us throughout the race, wearing custom
T-shirts to show who they support. All of it becomes a blur. Maybe I’m
delirious, or just too focused on finishing. I miss my little flag hand-up
somehow. I am relieved to finally cross the finish line, with a smile but
without a flag, and ready to put this race behind me.
If there is a finish line photo, it’s not the one I was
hoping for. I probably look a little
pale, maybe ready to fall over. The finish line photo I was hoping for is me
looking fresh, triumphant smile, arms raised in victory, little flag in hand.
Maybe next time. **
**Never say never.
True to Spanish sensibilities, the award ceremony starts at
10:30 PM (on a Sunday night! Don’t these people go to work on Monday??!!), and
lasts until well after we sneak away and head back across the river. It may be
Spain, but it’s still ‘Gin Sunday’ in my little world. Back in the Plaza, we
find one little outdoor bar still open.
I complete my rehydration protocol with a terribly
refreshing gin and tonic. We hear (rather than see) the fireworks that mark the
end of the 2016 World Duathlon Championship festivities. Now we can pack up our gear and sweaty
clothes, and embark on the next phase of our trip: a deeper immersion into
Iberian culture.
Sometime back in 2014, after a good finish at a local
duathlon, Angie suggested we compete at Nationals the following year (2015).
And we did, in St. Paul, MN, and qualified for Worlds, in Spain (2016). And we
competed at Worlds and we both finished well (she took 12th in her
age group, I took 5th in mine). And then, it was all over.
What next? Who knows? Time will reveal new opportunities.
For those who have the ability and desire to compete in a
National or World Championship event, I encourage you to go for it. By doing
so, you will be competing against the best in the nation, or the world. You
will get to experience a new place – maybe a place you never knew existed – as
a national representative on a global playing field. It’s as close as many of
us will ever get to an ‘Olympic’ dream.
Gracias, Aviles, and Team USA, and everyone who made this
event unforgettable.
Muchos gracias, Angie, for making the impossible happen. And
Dave and Jason, for your unwavering support of our great ideas.
Monday, May 30, 2016
The Team USA Experience
This video, posted by USA Triathlon, shows the Team USA experience. In a few short days, this is going to be me and Angie.
I get chills just watching it.
More blog posts coming, but right now I'm really focused on just getting there and getting it done.
Wish us luck!
Thursday, April 21, 2016
GRIT
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| Barry-Roubaix 2016 |
“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”
- The Bene Gesserit Litany Against Fear, "Dune"
It's tough. You have to fight your way through loose gravel, deep sand, dust clouds that hang over the never-ending line of racers. It will scare you. You might lose control of your bike. You will feel like you're going to slide out into thick gravel at the bottom of a fast descent and break something.
You'll swear you'll never do it again.
But then, with time and rehydration, you'll see things more clearly.
Like, how just being able to do this kind of thing is a privilege that few are granted. That life is either a daring adventure, or it's nothing. That, with a little practice and determination, this becomes less intimidating and a lot more fun.
Show a little grit. The object isn't to get to the finish line as fast as possible.
The object is to never arrive.
Saturday, April 2, 2016
A Farewell to Death Valley
We came here to ride long miles under a blazing sun, of course, knowing that any plans we made would be at the mercy of natural forces. We started with our favorite and familiar routes. But even the sand dunes, which might not look any different than before, move and shift over time. The same holds true with what we think we know about this place: it never changes, and yet it's always different. Death Valley is a mystery that can never be solved.
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| Contemplating the 7%, 10-mile climb to Hell's Gate. Crosswinds gusting to 40+ mph. |
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| Team Stelleri's desert debut! |
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| I can't do this as well as Jill can. I think her arms are longer. |
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| Hiking in Mosaic Canyon |
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| Angie, Ruler of Rhyolite! |
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| Furnace Creek Ranch, at 190 feet below sea level |
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| Mesquite Flats sand dunes |
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| Not a bad place to steal a kiss! |
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| A highlight of this trip: summiting Dante's View with Angie! |
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| Another great day at Artist's Palette |
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| Gower Gulch Loop Trail, at sunset. |
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| Angie waiting for the boys at the top of the first climb, Artist's (F**king) Drive |
| Snake bait! |
| Another point in the physical world that coincides with the Alternative Universe of Kymaerica. This one is in Rhyolite, NV. |
| Bourbon and ice. Jason's new cocktail: The Artist's Fucking Tailwheels! |
| Wind is good for something |
| Waiting for sunset on the Mesquite Sand Dunes |
| Flying, as the sun sets and the moon rises |
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| Me and Dave at Zabriskie Point |
| Badwater salt pan |
| The superbloom |
| Gold rush |
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| Night hike on Badwater salt pan. Pitch black, really stupid idea but we all survived. Most of us unscathed. |
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| The End! |
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