Wednesday, March 5, 2014

I think I lost my fire

I can't do this anymore. I can't force myself to burn my legs out on this indoor trainer. I can't bring images of future glory to factor into my motivation. I have no motivation left.

This winter has been hard, harder than any in recent years - at least in the years since I've been training indoors in the winter. I'm told that this is what winter used to be like, back in the 60's and 70's. I think I would remember, but I wasn't riding inside at that time and, besides, I didn't feel the cold the same way as a kid that I do now. I think I used to like it.

But I'm done trying to HTFU. I'm done 'embracing the suck'. The suck became too big to embrace. The suck became the drunken uncle that always wants to open mouth kiss you at Christmas. No no no no no...

I want to move to a place where a 'chilly' day is one that is 70° and sunny. With no wind.

Because I just. Can't. Keep. Going. Like. This. 


  1. I hear you Pam. In the beginning it's ok to try and deal with winter but I think we are all at the end of our ropes in having to accept that it gets this cold and for long. Hang in there!

    1. So right, Jackie! By December, the novelty of riding in the cold and snow starts to wear off. And we've had very little reprieve this winter.

  2. You are SO not alone in your thoughts after this winter, my friend. I am also done and ready to head to sunnier skies!

  3. I know few people with as much spirit and love of cycling as you; not gone, either of them, just covered in a layer of old snow.

  4. I have a buddy up in Wisconsin that hasn't been on the road since the first week of November. With the exception of doing Sebring RAAM qualifier and George Vargus' camp 2 weeks ago. He does 12 hour Saturday rides on the trainer!! Pure mind over matter